the feeling.

have you ever felt like this? like your heart and mind are about to explode. like you have nothing left to live for. like your bed is the only place in the world where you feel safe, confortable and understood.
 
have you ever felt empty? like you have nothing inside of you, and that nothing keeps pressuring your whole body and doesn't want to come out. like you belong nowhere. like you have nothing to give. like no one really cares or likes for who you are. like nothing makes sense anymore.
 
have you ever felt disgusted? with yourself. with who you look in the mirror every day. with the people around you. with the whole world.
 
have you ever felt like that? did you? that wierd feeling that everything is wrong, that doesn't go away, even when you cry, even when people try to help.
 
have you ever felt like no one can save you? like no one can help, like no one can understand you, like no one even listens when you scream inside.
 
have you ever felt sunk inside of yourself? so attached to that feeling that you can't escape it, like you can't escape your own sadness, your own tear, your own thoughts. like you keep hurting yourself and don't even realise it.